More to come.

Do you ever ask God why you are where you are? Why in the world you are in the season you are in? I have recently been here. I don’t think I have ever dreaded school as much as I did this year. Yes, dreading school is an unusual thing for me…. Anyway, God used last year to really weed out my friends and bring in the ones I will probably be sticking with through high school. Which, this is an awesome thing in the end, but very hard and sometimes sad, but He works it all together for His glory.

So this year, I walked into school with no best friend, no boyfriend (of course) and no sister as a Senior. It was very hard the first day, being lonely..but when I think about it, it really was a humbling experience for me but hard. All my close friends went to another school and this challenged me.. I had a bad attitude about it the first day; I went into it really frustrated and sad. But of course, once again my God showed himself faithful.

A day before my “official” day of my sophomore year, God put someone normally unexpected in my path and after telling her I was dreading the year but that I knew that this must be the year God wanted to do something…She challenged me to read Romans 5 from the Message:

” Developing Patience

^1-2By entering through faith into what God has always wanted to do for us—set us right with him, make us fit for him—we have it all together with God because of our Master Jesus. And that’s not all: We throw open our doors to God and discover at the same moment that he has already thrown open his door to us. We find ourselves standing where we always hoped we might stand—out in the wide open spaces of God’s grace and glory, standing tall and shouting our praise.^3-5There’s more to come: We continue to shout our praise even when we’re hemmed in with troubles, because we know how troubles can develop passionate patience in us, and how that patience in turn forges the tempered steel of virtue, keeping us alert for whatever God will do next. In alert expectancy such as this, we’re never left feeling shortchanged. Quite the contrary—we can’t round up enough containers to hold everything God generously pours into our lives through the Holy Spirit!

^6-8Christ arrives right on time to make this happen. He didn’t, and doesn’t, wait for us to get ready. He presented himself for this sacrificial death when we were far too weak and rebellious to do anything to get ourselves ready. And even if we hadn’t been so weak, we wouldn’t have known what to do anyway. We can understand someone dying for a person worth dying for, and we can understand how someone good and noble could inspire us to selfless sacrifice. But God put his love on the line for us by offering his Son in sacrificial death while we were of no use whatever to him.

^9-11Now that we are set right with God by means of this sacrificial death, the consummate blood sacrifice, there is no longer a question of being at odds with God in any way. If, when we were at our worst, we were put on friendly terms with God by the sacrificial death of his Son, now that we’re at our best, just think of how our lives will expand and deepen by means of his resurrection life! Now that we have actually received this amazing friendship with God, we are no longer content to simply say it in plodding prose. We sing and shout our praises to God through Jesus, the Messiah! “

I started reading this and tears filled my eyes. How faithful of My Savior !!! This is what gave me the strength and motivation to go about this year. And when I think about it, My motive is so selfish and wrong… IT IS NOT ABOUT ME! [wheww ] IT is about pursing the work of His Kingdom. So many people need the love of Jesus and I am a chair away having a pity party about my life and having no friends!! It is time I get my eyes off of myself and put them on my Savior and pursue the things He has for me in order to further his kingdom.

Many times I sit and think on why God hasn’t put a boyfriend in my path or why I can’t play sports or don’t have any school activities I am so passionate about ….But God has His own plan for me. I have to pursue Him and His plan for me …no one elses.  He continue to shows me how to do that. For instance, when I wake up in the early morning to seek Him in His word and praying, I have a new attitude and have eyes that look for opportunities to share His love. God’s eyes. Also, I get a boldness to serve Him.

So in all this, He is so faithful…once again! And I know, on the days I wake up and don’t want to have a good attitude about it, He is there to catch me and remind me who I am and who He is and why I am where I am. This is a scripture that was talked about last night at church and was in my quiet time again this morning:

⁵ Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;  ⁶ in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.    Proverbs 3:5-6

So I will seek Him and serve Him even in this season.

¹³ You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.     Jeremiah 29:13

-Amy

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